THE GROWTH…

IMMOBILIZED BY RAGE AND DISAPPOINTMENT MY LIFE IS AT A STANDSTILL
WHERE MY FUTURE MY PAST AND MY PRESENT MEET
I AM STUCK IN A SITUATION WHERE MY MIND AND MY MATURITY
CONTRADICTS EACH OTHER
WHAT I THINK OF MYSELF IS NOT HOW I’M SEEN
IF ONLY I CAN SEE THROUGH EYES NOT MY OWN
THEN I COULD TELL MYSELF WITHIN WHAT IS NEEDED TO CAUSE THE BEGINNING OF MY GROWTH
AS AN INDIVIDUAL
AS A MAN
AS A BETTER ME
LISTEN TO MY HEART ITS BEAT IS IRREGULAR
FORE IT SPEAKS AN ALTERNATE LANGUAGE
IN WHICH UNDERSTANDING IS BASED UPON THE LISTENER
DECIPHERED IN MANY WAYS DUE TO ME WANTING TO SPREAD MY EMOTION WITH EVERYBODY
LOOKING FOR COMPASSION TO CONSUME MY INSIDES AND ERUPT IN JOY
INSTEAD MY PAIN DEVELOPS AND SWELLS
CAUSING A REACTION OF DEVOTION AND SYMPATHY
BUT DON’T PITY ME
I WILL BE OHKAY
LURKING IN THE SHADOWS OF REALITY IS SOMEONE
WATCHING CARING WAITING
TO EMERGE AT THE RIGHT TIME AND INDULGE ME IN LOVE
ALAS THIS IS JUST A DREAM
SO MANY HAS COME AND GONE BUT PERFECTION WAS NOT MEANT FOR ME
WHEN IT SEEMS EVERYTHING IS GOOD I MESS UP MY LIFE
ALL I AM IS A HASSLE FOR MY PARENTS
THEY MAY FEEL I DON’T CARE BUT I DO
I AM FULL OF LOVE FOR THEM BUT EVENTUALLY I SHALL LEAVE
TO IMPROVE THEIR LIVES AND GROW UP
BECAUSE WHEN I’M GONE EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY
THAT’S WHAT MATTERS THE BIGGER PICTURE
I SHALL ROAM THE STREETS BETTER MYSELF AND COME BACK
EVOLVED INTO A SOPHISTICATED ADULT WHO ALL CAN BE PROUD OF
THEN TRUE HAPPINESS WILL BLOSSOM IN THIS WORLD
IN WHICH WE LIVE